April 3, 2018

I haven't written in awhile because Daniel has been in a lot of pain lately.  The blockage is playing games with his body once again. and he has been sleeping a lot and not eating too much.  Soup and broth seems to be his diet these days.  

He certainly knows his body and what he needs to do and not do.  I keep coming up with ideas to cook for him like a small sweet potato casserole, I know he loves sweet potatoes but I think they would be hard on his digestive system right now.  

I know he loves key lime pie, I wanted to fix that for St. Patrick's Day, we had even decided on a ginger crisp crust, I'm feeling really hungry all of a sudden.   I ordered actual key lime juice, thank you Amazon (even though I hate you work ethics).  We were both excited about that one but he wasn't really feeling well enough for that one to be made either.  

I need to really listen to him a bit closer.  He had come up with the idea of peanut butter cookies when we realized we had an abundance of peanut butter, same thing, when we offer to make them, not the right time.  

Daniel loves cooking and eating fresh made anything.  Since he can no longer cook himself or even help with the process, he loves the smell of something baking.  All of his denials are setting off alarm bells in my heart that things are going downhill fast.  I promised I would not ask him to stay here longer than he could, but wow, I want to, I want to beg him to stay another life time, another year, another month..... 

My major issue is that I like him, I really do like him.  Not only do I love him, but I like his friendship.  I like to do things with and for him. I like his attitude (most of the time), I like the adult he turned out to be.  He's not an angry man and he could have chosen to be, he is grateful.  He's frustrated and uses the limited control his has in "strange" ways, mostly on his care givers.  However over all, I'm very happy to hang out with him.  

This is getting too long.  I have more to say but I will wait for another day.  

Love to you all.